The Golden Fool
I Am Aware
I rule the kingdom of missing beats
They are discovered late like John Keats
I am aware I am thought a fool,
yet, I do assure, I am no tool
Yes, I am carried by ice cold feet
It is true, I just can't stand the heat
My impulse tells me to rock the boat
though I always lapse to stay afloat
I simply like for life to be neat
As I want for myself, I do treat
I find it difficult to stay calm
I pick my skin over every qualm
Inside my mind I have always dwelled,
my fear of closeness keeping me celled
I cannot trust until I feel love
around my heart fitting like a glove
People ask me why I am this way
Stifled, I know not what I can say
I promise I want to touch and hold
But all that I ever feel is cold
Dull, insecure, gullible and sweet
All terms for unattainable meat
I have been called each one without thought
They do not know the battles I have fought
Tolerant and kind are not the same
I am not naive, I know the game
In silence, I wait with my bait
Waiting to reel in the hands of fate
Love is Like Gold
Love is like gold;
difficult to attain and so delicate to hold
Yet, once it is felt,
it can never melt
Through heat and pressure it withstands
Its ownership on our hearts it brands
It waits patiently with one goal;
saving itself for only one special soul
It shares not itself in the way of a whore,
but is faithful to the one and only who washes to its shore
It is always generous and carries no excuses;
staying true to its words, it never abuses
Praise and celebration it showers,
onto the king or queen it empowers
It seeks out not empty flings,
but the fulfilling simple things;
like the child-like spark of vulnerability in one's eyes,
which twinkles briefly before it quickly shies
And the quivering lips of a nervous smile,
along with a precious laugh, which transforms into the face of an angel to beguile
It crumbles from only one voice, which awakens both pleasure and tearful pain,
yet, also comforts, much like the soothing drops of rain
It misses all of these, along with the senses;
like one's mysteriously sweet smell, which instinctively lowers all logical defenses
Perhaps it is the rare, conscious scent of pheromones, which radiate so strong,
like the heat in the rapture of hands intertwined for so long
It sees your beauty and your niceness within and without
It judges not and gives you the benefit of the doubt
It still feels your presence, even when you are not near
Even if it tries, it is impossible to veer
There is no vacancy in your place
Love leaves no room for strangers to replace
Forgive Me, I Implore
Love is like gold;
difficult to attain and so delicate to hold
Yet, once it is felt,
it can never melt
Through heat and pressure it withstands
Its ownership on our hearts it brands
It waits patiently with one goal;
saving itself for only one special soul
It shares not itself in the way of a whore,
but is faithful to the one and only who washes to its shore
It is always generous and carries no excuses;
staying true to its words, it never abuses
Praise and celebration it showers,
onto the king or queen it empowers
It seeks out not empty flings,
but the fulfilling simple things;
like the child-like spark of vulnerability in one's eyes,
which twinkles briefly before it quickly shies
And the quivering lips of a nervous smile,
along with a precious laugh, which transforms into the face of an angel to beguile
It crumbles from only one voice, which awakens both pleasure and tearful pain,
yet, also comforts, much like the soothing drops of rain
It misses all of these, along with the senses;
like one's mysteriously sweet smell, which instinctively lowers all logical defenses
Perhaps it is the rare, conscious scent of pheromones, which radiate so strong,
like the heat in the rapture of hands intertwined for so long
It sees your beauty and your niceness within and without
It judges not and gives you the benefit of the doubt
It still feels your presence, even when you are not near
Even if it tries, it is impossible to veer
There is no vacancy in your place
Love leaves no room for strangers to replace
Regret
mistakes and aches
they are minor earthquakes
so simple to make
yet how difficult to take
though we are surely to break
still regretfully we partake
in what our hearts will only forsake
ignoring the signs shewn to brake
but for the want of hope's sake
as we fight against the shake
which attempts to rouse us awake
opening our eyes to all that was fake
Surrender What My Heart is Due
Return them to me, my pearls
from around my heart they once wrapped
I am not like other girls
for without them my heart is trapped
From around my heart they once wrapped
as sacred Rosary beads
For without them my heart is trapped
I gave them to you as seeds
As sacred Rosary beads
each one represents a prayer
I gave them to you as seeds
to become their only bearer
Each one represents a prayer
held for every year I live
To become their only bearer
these gifts to you I did give
Held for every year I live
lost prayers, which cannot be heard
These gifts to you I did give
These you took from me without word
Lost prayers, which cannot be heard
long blocked from being granted
These you took from me without word
my sense of self now scanted
Long blocked from being granted
buried deep in some unknown ground
My sense of self now scanted
rummaging ever to be found
Buried deep in some unknown ground
crying out far for my heart
Rummaging ever to be found
only just falling apart
Crying out far for my heart
refusing to give up the fight
Only just falling apart
hoping you will do what is right
Refusing to give up the fight
my sacred heirlooms will pray
hoping you will do what is right
Dig them up from whence they lay
My sacred heirlooms will pray
your crisis of conscience will wake
Dig them up from whence they lay
All my heart wants is not to ache
Your crisis of conscience will wake
for my jewels are mine to keep
All my heart wants is not to ache
so what they sow, it may reap
For my jewels are mine to keep
That is all I wanted from you
So what they sow, it may reap
surrender what my heart is due
That is all I wanted from you
I am not like other girls
Surrender what my heart is due
Please, return them to me, my pearls
I Am
I am your stepping stone
milestone
accident prone
regretfully known
Perfection, you could not hone
to suit your own
selfish moan
of a harsh tone
which has sown
the Monster within me, grown
now, full blown
seated upon my throne
from whence I was flown
to the ground, now thrown
into this Dead Zone
of Shame not shown
where Secrets groan
muffled, from the depths of my Soul
Forever alone.
Pure Fruit
Pure, untouched, ripe fruit, fresh on the tree -
such a sad and lonely thing to be.
Unwanted for you are insular.
Misinterpreted as insecure.
Gone is the want to commit and choose.
People want convenience, fast and loose.
So they seek fruit contaminated -
broken-down and dilapidated.
Touched and handed down from man to man -
roughed and tumbled by vain soiled hands.
Made unclean by tarnished filthy skin -
destroying the goodness once within.
No amount of cleansing can restore,
the vibrancy that the fruit once bore.
Left hanging until you fall and rot,
fully determined, they loved you not.
They know not the meaning of the word -
those selfish vagabond pecking birds.
Flight of fancy turned to frustration.
Season of death, brought a cessation,
to the season of life, when love grew -
fresh like the fruit, pure, ripe, warm and new.
Though, you rotted, the seeds stayed behind,
leading you to resurrect refined.
You hang and wait on a stronger branch,
knowing how to lure loves blessed hands.
Comments
Post a Comment